12 February 2015

Impermanence of Life

I cried in front my my class that day when my english lecturer Miss Susan asked us to do a presentation about introducing ourselves. So i had been thrown a topic - talk about my mom which majority of my friends not familiar with. Yea, i rarely talk about her and none of my friends had seen her before. Whenever i talk about my mom, since i was a kid, i will cry. She went to USA since i was 5, cannot deny that she has gave us a lot, a lot of luxury stuffs. Costly handbags, branded shoes, branded clothes. I love her and i really did.

She might be coming back before Chinese new year. She might. She thought a lot, she unsure if she wants to come back, even through she has already bought the flight ticket. It is a tough decision for her, for a person who already used to be the weather there, used to be the lifestyle there, used to everything there. She finally made up her mind to come back and she delivered everything back to Malaysia, resigned from job, told the landlord that she is moving out and trying to settle everything.

Somehow, life is not that smooth and thing changes in a blink of eyes. My aunt, told my mom a heart breaking news. She went for scan and found out that there is something in her backbone. Not to mention what the thing is but it is not a good news for sure. She will undergo a surgery and take the thingy out for further analysis. Both them cried a lot because of this. My mom struggling if she should come back. I was thinking if i was her i will stay and take care of her because she is my sister and she is the one who be with me all these years. Comes back to the reality, how can a homeless and unemployed people survive there for several months.

A people's characteristic can be revealed with you facing troubles. One my my aunt who is also working there reluctant to take care of my aunt because she wants to work, explicitly, for money. So this reminded me of my grandma (mother's side). When she was sick and laying on the bed of hospital, none of her son nor daughter shown up to visit her besides my dad who is only her son-in-law. Honestly, i hate all relatives of my mother's site, all those greedy and selfish aunt and uncle.

Whoever reading this, please pray for my aunt, hope for the best, hope it is a positive thingy, hope everything will be fine. I hope you are doing fine too. :)